i should one hundred percent be asleep right now and i should DEFINITELY not be putting any of my 3am thoughts out for public consumption (like ANYONE is going to read this lolololol) but whatever. i have to do something while i wait for my laxative tea to cool down enough to chug. 

nothing overly controversial on my mind, just reflecting on my life up to this point while i listen to one of my favorite records from jr high and thinking about how crazy it is that i am living something close to the life i always wanted.

i think the trick is to keep going. the trick for me will be to not die before things get even cooler.  

earlier tonight, i washed down a pint of ice cream with a bottle of prosecco; that may not be the key to staying alive but god DAMN was it delicious.